---
title: "On the bitch"
description: "Momentary satisfaction, toxic self talk, and ephemeral pride"
author: "Ghaith Ayadi"
site: "Verbatim"
collection: "The mechanics"
url: "https://verbatim.ayadighaith.com/the-mechanics/on-the-bitch"
date: 2024-03-21
updated: 2026-09-16
---
# On the bitch

I don’t know about tomorrow. But today… I’m not a bitch.

That’s the feeling I sometimes get from endurance training. I only get it when I’m totally crushed. If I’m feeling good, then I feel like I didn’t do enough, like I’m selling myself short. I feel like a little bitch.